Bullshits and Fuck-ups

Why?

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Sun, 04 May 2008 12:01:00 +0000

Ive met a friend online and he has been very open about his relationship. So i felt like opening my own story as well. The conversation lasted for quite sometime...and again made me think of my bf and the fight we had the other day. Anyhow, Ive realized that he had just been out of a relationship. And I was moved by his story and the last words he said was.."Please dont make your relationship be like ours" heres a compiled video of higgy and diggy.

Music Of The Night

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Sat, 03 May 2008 04:45:00 +0000

The idols this week tried a very edgy and very difficult theme... this time theyre into musicals. David Cook made his own version from Phantom of the Opera and i find it so captivating. i dont know about you but i find this song so sweet that i almost got teary-eyed after listening to it. I have been a Cook fan and always will be till the end of this season.. win or lose.

Music Of The Night

I am my own Chef

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Thu, 01 May 2008 12:04:00 +0000

Today I went to IKEA and bought some things for my apartment. Then I started to think since I also bought goodies for my kitchen, how about if I'll start to cook again. When I was back in Cebu, my Grandmom cooked a very nice dish...seriously I forgot whats it called.. but im sure it sounded like "Sinagang" Damn, its way far from Thai's "Tom Yam Soup" or the Frenchs' "Escargot" or Golden Fork's "Boullabaise Soup"

Well, for you guys who doesnt know whats in it....its baby pork knuckle chopped then simmered to tenderness (or shall I say) a Tamarind base paste to taste and lots of Tomatoes. with pounded Taro for the soups thickness and consistency, chopped raddish, eggplant and chili? (optional) (wtf? I sounded like my mom. hehehe)

Hmm I really dont know if I mentioned all the stuff in there, but as far as I know those were the main ingredients of my Nanas recipe. Besides, Im proud to say Ive cooked and made it (in an amateurish kind of way hehehe.) And Im also sure it certainly looks like this pic. Anyway, have a nice dinner/lunch whatever.

Certified Parents

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 05:02:00 +0000

My boyfriend and I adopted an American Pitbull Terrier and named her after the singer Cassie. I cant believe were already parents.....of course in our own silly and unique way. Our baby is sooo cute. I cant wait to get my hands on her. Oh before I forget... she has a cousin. a Shih Tzu. My boyfriend calls her Whammie..I call her the MOP. hehehe. Anyway, here are the pics.. The BULL and the MOP

The snob thug!

My Hubby and our baby! Aww!I want my Daddy TimPretty In REDDont' hate me because I am Beautiful!My Hubby and Whammie (the mop)Aww, look at those poppy eyes!I mean, I don't know about you! but haven't you seen a dog smile?The LOVE of my life

The Good Ol' Days

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Sat, 26 Apr 2008 02:03:00 +0000

I had a quick swim yesterday in one of the beaches here with some friends. it was fun and it made me remember my homies in bahrain a few years back. back when I was still much confused (wink-wink). Anyhow, my hubby has seen these pictures and he feels like joining me in the nude. lol (we'll get there, just hang on and keep your fingers rossed)

tim, kenny, michael ---oooh steaming jacuzzi..nice.

gotcha!!! timmy playing with the bubbles and his weiner! lol

Youll never know

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 00:33:00 +0000

that hunky neighbor of yours......that bus driver........that newspaper guy......... that mailman...... Youll never know.

Jackass Duo....the amateur version

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 00:25:00 +0000

I just found these guys on youtube and I’m totally transfixed. I mean, I'm hard pressed to come up with an explanation but somehow that doesnt bother me. They're so oddly oddly specific about what they're doing and they have so much conviction about it that I actually find them strangely comforting. Essentially, their work is more or less genius. Some of it is a bit slow in parts but I mean, they’re completely insane and I just love it.They’re sort of a Gilbert and George meets Jackass pair. I mean, what a combination. Excellent work, boys. MTV here they should be coming.

Im F*cking Matt Damon

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Wed, 23 Apr 2008 23:56:00 +0000

Fuck, dont think that I really get to fuck the Bourne celeb. As a matter of fact he is at the top of my list of fantasy-sex-partners. Last night, I was browsing Youtube and to my surprise, somebody gets to fuck him first. :,( *sigh* Check the fuckin video. im laughing my crack off! LOL

Here comes the hot steppers!!

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 08:17:00 +0000

I was talking to my boyfriend about Step Up 2. and fuck, we cant stop watching the movie again and again. in fairness to my bf's girlie taste (lol), hes into cassie's "is it you?" the song is cool too. (wink-wink). but my favorite scene from the movie is incomparable. here it is.

Frustrated DJ

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 06:13:00 +0000

I have been a fan of DJ Dread of Liverpool. Everytime he'll come to HI i would definitely be the first to get the tickets. He is just simply the mix guru of all time. The trancic beats makes you bob your head like a doggie on the dashboard. LOL. heres a pic of me doing the same SHIT. hehehe. DJ DrEaD thanks for the inspiration.

American Idol update.

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:30:00 +0000

Last week the idols go for Mariah Carey hits. David Cook who has been my favorite this season tried a different kind of twist with the song. Anyway, he pulled it through and still sounded great.

Always Be My Baby - David Cook version

Wicked!!!

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 09:52:00 +0000

ive made my own design and got myself a html code.. but the question is... how am i going to put this one on my page? hubs, do you know anything about html's? waaahhh! i need HELP. Anyone?

My bet on Idols

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 08:10:00 +0000

i have been an avid fan of this guy. he really does know how to make his music go upside down. in other words, REINVENTION. it all started when he sang this ever classic song from Michael Jackson. at first i really didnt notice how the song go... but the lyrics were kinda familiar.. not till he sang the chorus.

here you go... David Cook with his own version of Billie Jean

watch also his previous song entry a rendition of Lionell Ritchie's "Hello"

oh the last video is for my hubby...."hello, is it me youre looking for?" ........now don't tell me its corny you dipshit!

Travelling Boyfriend; Future Husband

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 18:28:00 +0000

after i chatted with my boyfriend yesterday, my dad phoned up. its been ages that we havent spent time together. and since i was feeling hungry so, i decided to dine out with them (mom is kinda lazy to cook some decent meal for her boys today. hehehe) on my way out, i still keep thinking about jin... i was thinking how our life would be without each other.....thinking about all the negative flaks from people. and also about that recent incident. (oh btw, the bestfriend of that girl sent me an email and said. it wasnt me. shes NOT pregnant after all) and that made me mad and upset......and disappointed. i dont know....

in a few minutes, i will be meeting my folks in a local restaurant.

when i stepped in, i glanced around. but no mom and dad. grrrrr theyre late. so i made myself comfortable and took a table at the corner for three. the place was kinda new (as far as i can remember few years back) but then i realized the place was still the same it had just been refurbished and renovated.

what stucked to my attention was this picture on the wall. its more or likely a vintage photograph of women. and as i read along the caption, it brings back the smile in my face...

(This is a picture taken in 1920 of Japanese women who had come to Hawaii to marry -- without ever knowing their future husband. They are known as "travel brides".)

see, feeling sorry about the situation and stuff isnt that bad after all. even though im a travelling boyfriend, at least this time i knew on who i want to be with when i get older., at least this time i know who will be my future husband. lol

Another fave song

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Thu, 17 Apr 2008 00:08:00 +0000

chris daughtry is just quite an exceptional guy especially when it comes to music. he has touched a million of hearts with the song "home" and now hes touched mine with this song.

Over You - Chris Daughtry

The Amazing LEONA LEWIS

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 14:09:00 +0000

its almost a week now since im back here in hawaii. yesterday, was a very sad day for me.. i havent really explained to my boyfriend to what really had happened (of course i cant tell you). anyway, i was then stucked to this girl on the radio. and she sounded awesome. i felt like she was talking to me. ive waited for the song to end till the dj mentioned her name. LEONA LEWIS. after that, i rushed to my laptop and searched for her in youtube. here it is.. and heres the song.

I am so PISSED-OFF!

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Tue, 15 Apr 2008 04:22:00 +0000

it has been a very bad timing for me this year. i thought everything is in its place... but i was wrong. i got this job out of nowhere and i was happy for a short period of time. i bought a car , moved to another apartment.. i mean everything was supposed to go along. but then one day, something came up and that i have to move again. i hate this fuckin lifestyle. im like a freakin nomad. without a proper discussion with my boyfriend i flew back to the states. (he doesnt even know im back here already)

now, im back here in hawaii. i couldve called him but i still cant since i have to go grab another sim card for me to call abroad. which i dont have any plans of buying coz i dont know when i will be dispatched again. (ive heared i will be going to bahrain next)

anyway, ill just keep you guys posted. and to my boyfriend, IM REALLY SORRY i havent called. ill just give you a very loooooooooooooooooooooong email soon.

i love you.

timmy

(ps. the baby picture is for my boss)

Pictures.....

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Fri, 22 Feb 2008 04:13:00 +0000

My boyfriend has been very demanding lately....and still, I understand......sometimes. lol He has been very eager to see what I look like now. anyway, here are some shots from m y phone.... hope youre satisfied with these two. Oi, before I forget, ...I think youve forgotten something.... figure it out.

Im Back!

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Thu, 10 Jan 2008 08:13:00 +0000

Hey, its good to have myself hooked onto the keyboard once again after quite sometime. My job keeps me tied up to the things that i wanted to do.....which is blogging. lol. i cant even check out some mails from my boyfriend. but dont ever think that our communication stopped. its still there and we still keep on talking every now and then. i even talked to him yesterday right after i came out from the hospital. Yikes! the weather here is killing me. its soo fuckin cold.

anyway, ill update this blog once in a while... ill just keep you guys posted.

ciao

Im already Here (sob, sob, sob...sniff, sniffer)

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Sat, 03 Nov 2007 12:17:00 +0000

So tired and exhausted, I made it here in Abu Dhabi International Airport. Fuck, I haven’t even enjoyed the in-flight goodies. Was sleeping for the entire journey. (of course they woke me up for meals) Abu Dhabi is four hours minus to Philippines’ time. Anyway, I arrived here on Nov 1 at exactly 9:30 PM (1:30 AM Nov 2 Phils.)

So I have to adjust again with my body clock and was sleeping again for the rest of that day. When I woke up, I tried to put on my laptop then I guess there was a wireless link nearby so I tired to make it online. Was hoping to see my boyfriend but sad to say, he wasn’t around. But a very good friend was.(Miggy)was chatting for a while. but I think the connection isn’t that as fast I thought, checked my emails and voila! I have tons from him.YAY!! and BOO! Fuck, I lost the fuckin signal! I was even in the middle of reading my email. Then it froze for a while then that’s it.

Archie came to my room and asked if I wanted anything to eat. Ill just have a Mac and Pepsi. So he went out to grab some grub.

Lyin on my bed still kept on thinking about him. The next thing I knew I was already listening to this song and it made me want to cry right then and there.

PS. I have seen your email already its good to know you already recieved the ring. ill post the picture here soon....and hey! FUCK!!!! G4M is blocked in here.

Home - Michael Buble

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HOME

Another summer day

Is come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane

Another sunny placeI’m lucky I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me

But this was not your dream

But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

And even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel alone

Oh, let go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m doneI gotta go home

Let me go homeIt will all right

I’ll be home tonightI’m coming back home

Asia's Songbird

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 11:14:00 +0000

I have been a fan of this beautiful and talented singer. Fuck I'd marry her if only im straight. hahaha. I have been watching some of her performances in Youtube and I find her so amazing.

Now this song had got me and hit me real hard, I felt like she was singing right in front of me. I mean.... I dont't know about you, but I love her and I love the song.

I know and im very sure that I wont be here for Christmas. so here goes.........From My Family to yours, and to my One and Only Boyfriend, Jinelle, Merry Christmas, and a Happy and Prosperous New Year!

Oops, I forgot about it again.

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 10:55:00 +0000

Hubs, here are your orders. lol

If I was a service crew, I know I will get my ass kicked in no time. He asked me to take a picture of his favorites.....(my hubby loves food).. Starbucks and Yellow Cab. so here goes.

I love you.

Last Day

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 09:26:00 +0000

As I was writing this post, I felt so exhausted, sleepy, tired and some other mixed emotions. Tomorrow is the day. The day that I will be separated to the one I love the most. The day that Im very scared of coming.

My boyfriend woke me up today at 2 pm since I have to drop something at the courier. He was already in school with his close friend Blessy. I took a quick shower, rushed to the mail since the cut-off time is 4pm.

Still sleepy, I've decided to go to a salon to make my nails done. (dont get me wrong. I dont have nail clippers to cut em.) Fuck this lady.... she keeps sniffing while watching the tv and doing my nails at the same time...fuck this korean soap operas.....then OUCH!! fuck again, she gave me too many cuts in my fuckin fingers..... fuck the situation.... fuck the weather..... it was raining cats and dogs as I have my laptop in my bare hands without any protective cover. fuck the network......ive been calling my boyfriend but there is no fucking signal....... fuck the road....got splashed by a big truck while im in a bicycle cab. fuck it!!!! fuck!!!! I stepped on a fuckin dog poo. then Im all fuckin stinky.. got the poo in my funkin newly cleaned toes. Then my boyfriend came online. and guess what? the fuckin ex boyfriend of his came to our scene again. (sigh)

Are these signs of bad luck?

Tomorrow at 7:00 a.m. I will be flying bound to hongkong then dubai for a conference. but you know what, I havent packed even a single underwear yet. Havent even bought anything for my travel. grrrr I am so mad. I just wanted to shut down for a while then retart again for later. I am so exhausted.

Im Engaged!

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Tue, 30 Oct 2007 14:54:00 +0000

(tim * i will wait for you * jin)

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Hey dont fret! don't react yet, I'm not done talking yet. These past days had been very difficult for me. In the sense that (a) I will be leaving the country (b) I havent informed my boyfriend about it. (c) my schedule for my departure has been moved to an earlier time. (d) Im not ready to go yet. Since I wanted to spend my holidays here with him (e) I still didn't know when I'll be coming back. (sigh, we gotta work. someone has to pay the bills.)

Last night was a very emotional one for both of us. I had the courage to tell him everything in a very slow, well-explained manner. I think I've told him everything. Then after all the explanation and stuff we ended up so silent. Fuck, fuck, fuck!...Silence fills my room....and on the other side of the line as well. We ended up crying. Life is not fair, isn't it? I guess this is all my fault, right? I could have told him earlier.

Yes, I am so in love with him and no doubt about it. And I'm sure, so does he.

But then, he spoke out.... his willpower and courage lifted my spirits up. He spoke like a true gentleman. He told me about the virtue of "waiting" and "patience". And he changed my perception about long distance relationships.

This morning, I recieved a phone call from my boss to pick up my plane tickets from the office. Still yet, I havent had enough sleep, rushed to my laptop to check about where I am going next, then my boyfriend came online.

So, since we talked about waiting and stuff last night, we decided to have a little arrangement. We made a pact... or shall I say, a PROMISE to be exact. I bought a pair of rings for both of us. Engraved inside was "I will wait for you" with both of our names.

So, here it is....our PROMISE RINGS.

And as to my boyfriend "No matter how far it seems, No matter how tough life can be, Love will lead us back together to share a life called Forever".

Elliott Yamin - Wait For You

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My Hubbys Poem for Moi.

noreply@blogger.com (stainedheart) — Mon, 29 Oct 2007 11:45:00 +0000

I love the way you talk to me.

The way you shaved your hair

I love your big damn surfboard
When you talk about it, it never really gets me bored.

I love your sweetness
Coz its one of my weaknesses

I love the way you care
That it reminds me of my teddy bear.

I love the way you smile
It makes me forget everything for awhile.

I love the way you write
It really shows that youre so bright.

I love the way you sing
It really makes my heart keeps falling.

I love it when you stare
Even if I look horrible you still don’t care.

And the most thing I love about you Is when
I finally heard that you feel the same way too..

-HUBBY JIN